I've brought the phrase "struggle spice" to a whole new level. On a quick side note: for those of you who've not yet integrated that into your vernacular - pick it up, its a keeper. I'm in this new job, and even my damn title is confusing - Process Lead - can you see anything of redeeming value in that? Didn't think so. I knew that with promotions came another level of responsibility that usually requires some adjustment time, but jeez... this is ridiculous.
I found out the day after I got back from Maui (I haven't mentioned that I was in Maui yet, but that story will be coming soon - is a good one) that the boss whose team I was working so hard to get back on was leaving our site to go take another job within our company. Its a great opportunity for him, but I was really bummed out because he's a great guy to work for, and has been immensely helpful in guiding my own career and even personal development. As if losing my boss wasn't a big enough chunk out of my learning curve, this job's training program is what we in mainstream Corporate America like to call, "sink or swim."
I am now five weeks into my new job, and am still struggling on a daily basis to figure out what the hell I should be doing with my time at work. There are some things I know to do: pull certain reports for certain people by certain days or they go apeshit, spend a couple hours each morning analyzing reports on both our previous day's and week to date numbers to find out where we're missing and then try to think of how to fill the gaps so that we're not missing goal... but really other than that I'm clueless - and the worst part is that there is no boss for me to go ask for help or get direction from. Instead, I try one of 700 million random ideas that come to my mind as to what I think might be the right answer, and keep repeating that trial and error process until I want to either jump off of a very tall building or go chew on glass. As a result, I spend lots of time every day trying to look busy and just getting stressed out because I know that there are things out there that I don't know I should be doing right now and in my head I just see this huge proverbial pile of "to do" items getting bigger, and bigger, and bigger...
It's quite an unnerving feeling to go from knowing everything about my job to knowing absolutely nothing about my job and not really even knowing where to start finding anything out. If every promotion I come across at this company is like this I'm screwed. I'll have an awesome title but constantly feel like I have the education level of a kindergartener because I can't figure anything out. I wonder if I should just color the reports before my meetings - at least then my kindergarten education would come in handy.
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